I'm Uncomfortable

Alright I read another 30 or so pages and I’m just really depressed and feel so freaking uncomfortable. I just feel really awkward reading this now because Bella’s so damn depressed it’s ridiculous. My mood has significantly changed over the past hour…I feel like Bella. While I was reading, I marked multiple different places where things stood out. One short paragraph really captured how depressed Bella was so I think I’ll share that one from page 102 “ The thick haze that blurred my days now was sometimes confusing. I was surprised when I found myself in my room, not clearly remembering the drive home from school or even opening the front door. But that didn’t’ matter. Losing track of time was the most I asked from life.” (Meyer). This quote seems to me that Bella just wants to stop living colorfully…meaning she has no more purpose, no point, no drive to do anything spontaneous anymore. About 4 months has gone by without Edward in her life and she’s a completely different person now. Charlie (her dad) is now noticing it and is clearly fed up. In my eyes, he doesn’t seem like the loud controlling father but there was a scene where he was just lit. He yelled at Bella telling her that he’s fed up with her mono-behavior (I don’t know if that’s a word…like mono-tone but for behavior? Maybe?). it was really shocking to me that he flipped….he would never seem like the kind of person to do that.