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Propoganda of terror in Rhodesia

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Propoganda of terror in Rhodesia

DOGS TONIGHT

Major depression, in fact, accompanies about one-third of all cases of alcoholism. It is more common among alcoholic women (and women in general) than men.
The craving for alcohol during abstinence, the pain of withdrawal, and the high rate of relapse are due to the brain's adaptation to and dependence on the changes in its own chemistry caused by long term use of alcohol. Alcohol causes relaxation and euphoria but also acts as a depressant on the central nervous system.

http://www.abess.com/office/library/alcoholism.html#02

They have sought the origins of segregation in different phases of colonial history: in the 18th-century Dutch slave colony of the Western Cape; on the troubled frontiers where trek boers competed with Africans for pastures;


This is an era generally considered among the most liberal in South African history, when slavery was abolished, controls over the Khoikhoi loosened, and a relatively colour-blind franchise introduced.

http://www.timeshighereducation.co.uk/story.asp?storyCode=162966&sectioncode=22

Brains are just confusing...

So I’m going to post again about New Moon. I really liked the description on page 126, “The cold rain dripped through my hair and then trickled across my cheeks like freshwater tears. It helped to clear my head. I blinked the water from my eyes, staring blankly across the road.” This quote just refreshed me. The way the “cold” rain dripped through her hair, then “trickled” down her cheeks like the pain being washed away, the relief that you are omitting the anger, the fear, the sadness, safely. Tears are safe, tears are perfect. Another quote popped out at me, on page 127, “Who would want to ride a motorcycle here? It would be like taking a sixty mile per hour bath.” I just thought it was humorous and light unlike the rest of the book. Wow really, it made me smile. I stopped and thought about if literally, haha it sounded really fun. Oh where my imagination takes me… Also, on page 129, a quote kind of had me stumped and I reread it a few times. “Inspiration hit like a bolt of lightning-not unreasonable, considering the storm.” Ok, so first I thought the storm could be a potential problem or conflict, then I thought the so the lightning bolt is reasonable, which the bolt is inspiration. Lightning bolts are powerful, bright, and damaging positively (electricity) and negatively (property, deaths). So in conclusion I concluded that the inspiration opportunity came up quickly and as powerful as a lightning bolt when it was needed the most, during a problem. Why did it take so long to break that down? I have no idea.

New Moon Thoughts

When Bella described her dreams on page 122 and 123, I got really nervous for her. If she keeps having these horrible repetitive dreams she needs a ton of help, even a friend for heavens sake, no not even that just a person to talk to or someone who will listen. Her dreams talk a lot about nothing, she’s pretty much worrying that her life is nothing anymore. She was looking for something the whole dream, but all she found was a bunch of nothing. Screaming, she says is how she wakes, someone help her!!! I guess you could say this book is like a diary, she is really emotional but no to anyone it seems like besides the book. She talks about how she wished she could feel numb again…I just am starting to feel bad. I’m pretty sure she’s talking about feeling numbly in love, with no problems, when Edward was around. I kind of got the shivers typing Edward’s name again, feels weird because he’s gone. Another example of how depressed and emotionally shook Bella is…page 124, “But what if this hole never got any better? If the raw edges never healed? If the damage was permanent and irreversible?” The answer is just move on. As much as it hurts things will get better, everything will go up from here because you’ve felt so low. But thinking about it, there are people out there that feel this way. Some people have illnesses that won’t allow themselves to forget which is such a battle. What would happen if NOTHING got better?

Yeah, again.

The commentary still is so awkward with Bella and pretty much everyone…just for an example even though this was a while ago, on page 107, “Where do you want to eat?” Jess asked. “I don’t care.” “Okay.” …Like how awkward is that… this paragraph also stood out on page 111, “it was his voice-I was exceptionally careful not to think his name and I was surprised that the sound of it did not knock me to my knees, did not curl me onto the pavement in a torture of loss. But there was no pain, none at all. I just thought it was a little extreme… “…did not knock me to my knees…” but I guess love is that powerful. Bella is so lost and I don’t know the word, her personality is dull? Her life’s tasteless? On page 115, Bella is so reserved she doesn’t even give Jess the benefit of the doubt to tell her even a little bit of what’s going on in her life like a real friend should. “You are so odd, Bella Swan. I feel like I don’t know who you are.” Jess said. “Sorry” is all Bella said…that’s all she could say…wow. I’m screaming in my head BELLA JUST TELL HER YOUR HAVING ISSUES AND ARE EMOTIONALLY DETACHED AND NEED PROFESSIONAL HELP. Just do something good for yourself and move…listen to your DAD! I actually am still so frustrated…all of my posts are going to be just bratty I think sorry everyone (if anyone is reading this).